Yesterday and Today

My grandfather, whom we all called Papoo, died last night. He was 95 years old and not sick or anything. He was self sufficient and independent his entire life till his death.

It was a semishock. On one hand is was 95 years old and we knew he would die probably sooner than later just based on his age. On the other hand, he wasn't ill or any of that at all, so it wasn't expected that Monday, 11/27/06 would be it.

I'm sad for my Dad who was with my grandfather. It must be hard for Dad. He doesn't show it though. He's very objective when maybe he shouldn't be this time around. When I talked to my dad last night he was talking about logistics basically, what needs to be done next, what needs to be resolved. Things... things... An emotional disconnect. A way of dealing? I don't know.

I'll be going to SC soon. I also talked to Kristin, my cousin, last night about all this. She said that maybe we can talk the car rental place into renting us a fancy car for the time we are in SC. "Maybe we can get something like a PT Cruiser," she said. Funny that she chose a PT Cruiser as being something fancy, wouldn't be my first choice, but whatever it made for a good laugh.

All this stuff makes me realize life is fleeting. Makes me want to stop screwing around and actually start moving in the direction I want my life to go... Not that I really even understand what direction that is. Just that I need to stop being afraid of taking chances and just go for whatever it is that I really want... Something like that.